After monday's CO COC, yesterday we had Div Comd COC (Division Command Change of Command). Since Tuesday, our parade square and company was very busy as they rehearsed for the parades. Around 6 contingents were involved. From HQ, Signals, Armour, Infantry, Artilery and Logistics. There were many RSMs, (Regimental Sergant Majors, commanders who look over the discipline of a battalion). Most of the RSMs, are from Commandos, and you could only hear the shoutings of them in the Parade Square, because they call the shots. Even commissioned officers are afraid of them.
The parade is very similar to the CO COC's however there is now a flag party, so its more impressive. Didn't managed to watch much of the reharsal, as we were advised not to look at the parade, asking for trouble. To the CSMs and RSMs, Parades and Parade Square are scared, they expect no unecessary movement during reharssal. After the marching contingents, there was even a mobile column, whereby, vehicles from respective formations drive past the outgoing Div Comd and saluating, impressive just like National Day. We were roped to do line of honour all the way to guard room to wave goodbye to the ex Div Comd, approx 400m. He left in a modified rover, fitted with the number plate 81 MID, just like his Audi and a star to represent his rank.
Last Thursday, we were supposed to help out with some things, but later postponed till noon, so we stayed in bunk and unknowingly fell asleep. Out of a sudden, our CSM came up and found all of us sleeping. He ordered us to see him in the office in 5mins time, DIE. CSM gave scolded us, and gave us a weekend confinement next week, our node warrants were present to console us.
The senior officers upon knowing our offence, decided to push every blame to us, from the older node which ord. They said that we were, lazy, slacking, defiant and even insubordination !!! Just because we were caught sleeping, by CSM don't meant insubordination, this word is too harsh. Even when we had to burn weekends for NDP, we did not defied any orders. I guess the reasons for venting their anger on us, was becasue of the older nodes, complained about their management. They even made a node shirt criticing the company and OC. I think the senior officers should not vent their anger on us, and sit back and reflect what went wrong, why the older nodes are so unhappy with them. We are innocent man drawing a meagre pay compared to them. You only do how much you are being paid.
As last Thursday was also my cousin's wedding I took half day off, left after lunch. Slept on the train and missed my stop, supposed to stop at Kallang got down at Bedok and went to catch the next train. This cousin is from my mother's side. Didn't had a vague impression of the family, except during Lunar New Year. The last wedding event I attended was some 4 years ago also one of my cousin, but he is very close to us. 2 weeks ago went to his house, for his twins babies full month celebration.
My mother and I took taxi to Regent Hotel and reached around 730pm. There was a long jam at Orchard. At the hotel lobby, saw a Jaguar sports car, quite rare. Went to congratualte the newly wed, soon my relatives came. The bride looked a bit like " Dai Qian Yun" new star search actress. We were ushered to the ballroom. As we were related so got sitted, near to the stage. But somehow, I was arranged to sit with my other cousins (no adults) at a table, shiok sial, sure lots of fun man, no paisehness. Talked cock alot and laugh at almost anything, btw I was the only male there haha. First time taste hard liquor and red wine, found the taste very funny, I wonder why people like to drink. There was video presentation, on the bridegroom and bride. Their baby photos, all the way to engagement, they also had a guessing game. 3 male would kiss the bride and the bride would have to guess which is the groom. The groom would hold 6 girls' hands to guess which belongs to his bride. The funny part was on the 5th person, the hotel manager gave his hand to the groom. The dinner was nothing fantastic except for sharks fin. Most of the time we were chatting didn't eat much.
At around 11pm, the dinner ended and some started to left. My cosuin, Ah Seng decided to drive my mother, 2nd auntie, 4th uncle and me back. I guess he was very tipsy, drank alot he started to talk about things we never heard before.He talked about how he suffered when his father passed away at a very young age like mine and how he had to work so hard before enjoying his fruits of labour. He is grateful for the support his relatives gave him during his journey.
On the way back, he asked me many questions.
Ah Seng> Have you got any plans after NS?
Me> Still thinking.
Ah Seng> A person must have goals, be it short of long term. Short term like ord and long term, being a successful businessman. I had put in alot of hardwork to acheived my long term goal. I heard you studied IT, the IT industry is so big, which areas are you goiing to devote your heart and soul into?
Me> Confused
I guess, he being in the workforce for so many years, had attended many motivational talks by professors or public speakers. It was like 1-2 yrs i last seen him. He had changed so much, speaking so eloquently and confidently. After talking to me, alot went through my mind.
I felt very useless. I practically wasted my time during school and poly. I did not score fantastic results for my exams or projects to make my parents proud. They did not give me any pressure when I was studying, and encouraged me, saying I put in effort and improve the next time. All the while, my studies had always been average, I did not motivate myself, put in any hardwork. I felt I had disappoint them and wasted alot of money. Especially during poly, I wondered how I survived through. I would find the lessons so boring and would sleep or skip lessons, but never gave the lectures any major problems. I finally graduated with a simple diploma which was so common.
My future is so uncertain
Long term goals
1) Make many friends. I am a introvert person, so I don't have many friends. Even if I do, normally we tend to forget when we graduate, or leave. Till this date, I got a handful of friends that are worth keeping, and not those, who lie, cheat, gossip or backstab you. I am very bad at maintaining relationships, till this date I don't know whats the reason can somebody advise me.
2) Put in hardwork, determination, discipline, diligence and motivation in something which I am going to devote myself in the future and acheiving feasible and promising results so that i can look after my mother and sister. Being 21, the sole breadwinner of the family, I can no longer everytime depend on my mother who is old and my sister who is visually handicapped.
3) Find my ideal lifetime partner
4) Buy my dream Mitsubishi Evolution 6
Short term goals
1) ORD
2) Find girlfriend
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